Another layout for Amethyst Rain, formerly known as Shizuka na Hitorigoto. This current design is the fourth one for this blog. It features a CG artwork downloaded from Boy's Wallpaper. The artwork is so wonderful that I immediately downloaded it when I first saw it. She's so hauntingly beautiful, don't you think? ^__^ I need not add any special effects because the image is beautiful the way it is. As for that disturbing swirl at the end, I have to do something so the image won't end abruptly. I'm too tired of feather effect so I decided to do something different. Hope you still like it! ^__^

I woke up ten minutes earlier than usual. Normally, that would translate to leaving the house ten minutes earlier. But no of course, when I was wearing my rubbershoes, I found some little wonderful packages waiting for me. Gah! I had to waste a lot of time removing the wonderful packages. Who'd want to start their morning scrubbing off street dogs' gifts (read: poo)? What a great way to start a day. T__T

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I think I should audition for a Dysudrin commercial or perhaps a Rudolph role for a Christmas play. My nose is currently red; all credits due to the bright and cheerful sun that burned it. I had to work in Gawad Kalinga Baseco to fulfill our course requirements in RELSTRI. I have no qualms about helping the poor rebuild their houses. It's just that I'd wish they'd add more people to our area so as to lessen the workload. I think we worked twice as hard as other people since there are only five of us in the station while there are ten or more in others. My arms are all sore. I can barely lift a hollow block anymore. Fortunately, the schedule for the afternoon is different, or that's what I thought. Afternoon is alloted for community immersion. Heh. Being with kids with high EGO (in freudian perspective) isn't my cup of tea. They were obviously vying for my attention, wishing that I'd play with them like the other students would. But I just look away. I can't even remember those stupid games we used to play in elementary such as "saw-saw suka or sen-sen-sen or something like that" or even have the patience to keep up with their rudeness, Forget it *shookes head* I'd rather do more house construction than play with them.

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Luxor!!! My friend introduced us to it yesterday. It's a game where you have to shoot colored balls to a moving line of balls to form at least any three consecutive balls of the same color. You have to eliminate all balls before the line hits the end. The theme of the game is Egyptian and of course their stage titles will be Egypt-related too. I actually find their stage titles very amusing. So how do I rate this game, Marone says it's better than Candy Cruncher. For me, it's a tie.

So much for the games.. Tomorrow we have to wake up at 6 to attend some required community service for RELSTRI. The community site of choice was Gawad Kalinga in Baseco. Err.. Let me rephrase that. The community site we chose was Gawad Kalinga in Baseco because we don't have any other better choice. ^^;; I guess lifting hollow blocks, painting houses, and doing other construction jobs is better than feeding the dying. In the construction area, you find hope because you are building a house. In the Home for the Destitute and Dying, I guess feeding the dying wouldn't give you much good feelings. ^^;;

Gosh I'm so apathethic.

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I feel so stupid lately. Why in the hell am I so conscious about my grades and what other people think of me. It really shouldn't matter. Since when have I started to care so much?

I get riled up when my professor used my "problematic" research problem as an example in class for more scrutiny on why it was problematic. I got a little depressed because my three hours effort in making that paper wasn't rewarded. Even though I tried to make a good paper, if the foundation is all wrong, then everything else simply collapses.*groan*

Am I trying hard to keep up with my classmates' image of me that I'm eventually not allowed to flunk at anything? I'm heaping troubles on my head. I should give myself a good break. T__T

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I'm happy that I'm back in school. It's an absurd mindset for a healthy college student. But after wasting away for an entire term, you'd feel like you have to make up for the time you've killed. I planned to start things right for the new term. After all, you're free from the bondage with Ms. Sibayan, deskjet printing, thesis papers, logo comps, corporate id manuals, pagemakers, and photoshop. Err.. scrap that last one. ^^;; I'm not giving up my passion for digital art and webdesign soon.

I'm currently roaming the vastness of cyberspace, looking for inspiration for our next projects. It's there that you realize how lost you are and how meager you talents count against other digital artists. Whereas others can create a masterpiece out of scratch, you'd have to hope that you'd come closer to the fingertips of their standards by using pre-made textures, brushes, blends, etc. Shame shame..

Anyway, I've saved all pieces that have left me in awe. What better way of getting inspiration than by looking at awe-inspiring materials? So just to share with you the note-worthy sites I've been through..

# Annika von Holdt
# Fragile Decay
# Neosynthesis
# Photobreed
# Da fonts
# Project 821!!!! *this site is intense! It's made from flash so it loads quite slowly, but it's well-worth the wait*

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I got a huge fishbone off my throat. Although we still need to submit the paper to the department in less than a week, we're still relieved that the defense went okay so far. I'm not sure if the panelists were able to understand our thesis. Only Mr. Mariano was asking. He wasn't even criticizing our work but more on suggesting how we could improve our thesis. The scope of the thesis is enough, he just want us to do a little more things to make the application of the thesis more convenient for the organization.

It's a little weird how the panelists never asked about the survey method, our sample, and methodology, and how they never bothered to criticize the logo we made for the church. We expected things to be more grilling than this. But thank God they seem to take things as it is. I'm not complaining at all since that's what we're trying to avoid.

The panelists were not as friendly to other groups. I didn't get to watch how it had been for J. Lao and Bere. But I hoped everything turned out well.

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I was finally released from Hell last week... err.. from SMART. You'll learn prized experiences in there... such as learning first-hand how much public relations can do for you. Ever wonder why I hate SMART with so much passion even though a lot of people regarded it with so much pomp and prestige? I'd like to poke the eyes of the people who awarded the company as 2003 Best Employer. Heh. I got to hand it down to the public relations practitioners of the company for covering up all those shits in the company. Definitely not a great OJT experience huh.

Got so much time in my hands now. I'd be using most of my time updating the site while I can still use the computer lab. Don't you just love uploading stuffs past 8 in the evening in here?

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